十八 (Text Post)

[onikui_tengu]

It's cold. I think that I'd rather be inside... Especially with all the commotion outside and over the network.

[...]

You were right, Shinjiro. A roof is no place to sleep in the winter. ...Maybe I've just gotten used to falling on old habits.

Stop by for some hot cocoa, if you wish. I think this is one of the few chances that he'll ever be feeling this generous. Or at least the powder won't last forever.

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I have a favor to ask you.

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In the end, I can't help but feel that this proves that I was right about you all along...

I wonder what that will do to our contract... [...] How stupid.

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Comments

[piskiestix.livejournal.com]

You sleep on a roof? Seriously?

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

Not usually.

[piskiestix.livejournal.com]

Good. It's cold out.

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

I'm aware.

[piskiestix.livejournal.com]

You've got a place to stay right?

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

I do now.

[piskiestix.livejournal.com]

Good.

[prodigal-axe.livejournal.com]

You slept on that iced-over roof? Are you nuts?!

[Private to Haruka]

Er, what is it..? Somethin' wrong?

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

It gave me a place to go to. I'm used to it. Being on roofs, I mean.

[Private to Shinjiro]

Do you know of a place where I can stay over the next few days?

It could be more... I am unable to know for sure. Either way, I don't want to sleep on the bar's floor.

[prodigal-axe.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Me too, but I ain't fond of freezing my ass off.

[Private to Haruka]

Hm, I've got a room at Marshall that I don't use. Sometimes I lend it out if a person gets stuck, so.. that sound alright?

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

Hm. I didn't mind it... at least not for too long. It would have been better if I had kept my wings.

[Private to Shinjiro]

Yes. ...I owe you one for this, Shinjiro.

[prodigal-axe.livejournal.com]

Tried it out the other day, but it didn't suit me. I'll go back to sleepin' up there when it thaws out.

[Private to Haruka]

Ain't no debt. You guys took real good care of the bar while I had my rest, so it's not even a favor.

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

I'd be careful if I were you. If it wasn't for that jacket that you always seem to wear, then I'd worry about you dying in your sleep from the cold.

[Private to Haruka]

It's work. But if that's how you feel... I'm grateful either way.

[prodigal-axe.livejournal.com]

You're.. worried..?

Tch. Ain't a big deal.. I handle cold well enough.

[Private to Haruka]

It's more than work to me. You oughta know that.

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

Hm.

[Private to Shinjiro]

I'll keep it in mind.

[[ooc Ffff. You totally didn't see me screw up on that last heading. No you didn't. 8|;]]

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

...this is my fault.

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

He's an idiot.

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

Still, this would not have happened had I not been so...

1/2

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

[Totally humorless] ...Are you going to make me want to hit you the next time I see you?

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

Our contract has not changed.

...I still have a name.

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

It still could have been avoided.

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

Are you regretting it?

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

It was never my intention to cause you any...misery...or draw his ire.

1/2

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

......

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

I am not as worse off as you would have me believe, Testament.

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

But even then, it is obvious to me now just how strongly he feels on the matter. It is not a place where I should tread.

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

I would rather live as a nameless youkai, sealed away along with my memories... Then to be remembered as the dog of a human who could only obey orders.

...I have not lost my name. But I have lost my memories, and there's no hope of my being able to regain them in this world.

...I do not understand what it is that you are trying to take from me, but I feel like it would leave me much worse.

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

...I suppose it's not very obvious to you either.

He loves you, Haruka.

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

Adoration and love are not the same thing.

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

He may be terrible at showing it, but I know it's there, Haruka...I have no right to take that away.

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

From him... or me?

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

...he should at least be allowed a chance.

1/2

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

......

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

I hate humans...

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

...I'm sorry, but...

I'm no good at this. I don't know what to do.

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

No one can tolerate a life in chains... That is not happiness.

He has made it impossible for me to return to his side. ...Even then, it is not something that I would want. You both do not know the depth of betrayal that his words and yours have carved into me.

But you have given me an order. ...I feel more confused than ever.

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

...The selfish part of me wants you for my own...

1/2

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

......

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

Then I will have to do something about these chains...

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

But is it right of me? To want for someone like that...

1/2

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

It is not my place to say...

[onikui-haruka.livejournal.com]

But I will not let you walk away from me so easily.

Despite what you think, I have no regrets.

[7th-warrant.livejournal.com]

...that certainly gives me license to hope.